Lirin Amaya

bday surprise for dearest

2012-02-26T00:50:00.012+08:00

i planned a surprise dinner for him. so funny his reaction XD! but he's happy! ureshi~ bought him computer moniter & expensive bag ok. :D *girlfren award of the year*

Thanks everyone for coming down. ^-^ appreciate max!

bday surprise

2012-02-21T16:10:00.010+08:00

tama planned a surprise bday party for us! super love him ^^ there's a private pool in the hotel too! omg :D anyway Thanks Suki,Dennise,Shell,Dy & Kain + his ns fren & girlfren who turned up. ^^

Just a few photos to share~~

akai senbei neko!

2012-02-08T21:16:00.004+08:00

I duno... A red senbei(seaweed cracker) potato cat? LOL yes i made it from scratch a lucky charm for tama. ^^ sewed inside a peice of lucky paper & Kanji "luck" behind its back XD
work very hard to make ok. ;_;
ANYWAY MAKE U CRAVE FOR CHOCOLATES NOW

Lirin dances~

2012-01-29T21:16:00.002+08:00

Me dancing to Renai circulation & Happy symthersizer. XD

What do u think? :b more vids in my channel & more dances coming up
& thanks Kyuru for helping me film in the humid weather gomen! arigato!! muacks

ribbon-to

2012-01-24T23:05:00.004+08:00

CNY was kinda fun~ yummy food de most. mah jong!!
soooo dar. nicer?

managed to film my dance finally yay! thanks Kyuru for helping me! ureshi yo <3
but my face damn cock. =_=; but fun yo~!
ate loads of yummy food ahhh~ ok, thus out wif Suki den sat meet Tama again YAY!! cant wait to see my love. mew~

anyway on a side note, im super worried bout marriage. when everythin settle, i marry by when? 28? wat a joke. yes age is everything to me. i dont wan to be 39 when my kid is ONLY 10 yrs old. sigh... just thinking if i shld abondon the whole idea of marriage. dont marry at all. but later both sides parents unhappy. :/ i swear i srsly dun mind gettin unmarried. its such a hassel worrying bout my age. i duno. ok bye.

Xbox

2012-01-20T22:35:00.004+08:00

i customised a Muscle tee top with a xbox related theme on it, which is SO cool LOLmy heart sank so low when he was not excited at first, but when receive de gift, he was SO HAPPY my heart flew like crazy :D~ efforts paid off! <3
really, i had a hard time. :'( plus de muscle tee(which i searched for damn long) made his body show its true potential. he's so good lookin pls. omg. :X now i'm more afraid girls wana be close to him hphm. =/

love u sweetheart. i'm sorry that i cant wait till valentine den give u, cuz i'm too excited =( even accidently blurt out that it was a shirt FML *forehead palm maximum* how stupid can i get. -_-

ribbons & nekomimi

2012-01-18T20:38:00.002+08:00

Just a few of my random fun items
dont u feel like putting something on yourself?? LOL
Filming Happy sythersizer nx week, learning ponpon dance after that to perform at cosfest.
i miss staying overnite with Kyuru. :(

ok off to play skyrim now. hehe

amai diayo ne!

2012-01-12T19:28:00.006+08:00

□☆□＼(≧∇≦ )ｶﾝﾊﾟｰｲ!!
waiting for Kyuru to end his jamming session. going chinese garden to eat de xuen la tang. sourspicy soup? YUMMM cant wait.
after CNY can start dance vid, photoshoot etc yay!!

slut face hello!
And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years

wish i wasnt human

2012-01-10T22:08:00.004+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=poiZSEjQBgw dar i wan this song..

duno leh. i just dont feel good bout the new person. like the rush of bad feelings just slap me right in the face whenever this kind of thing happen. sigh. why cant the old one be good? dont understand. must be the brain in ass hole.

i'm super posessive, sensitive, jealous. how now u tell me? fml max.

why am i like dat.

I hate me. My looks, my attitude. i guess i'm just born to bring ppl down with burden. :( its forever a war in my head. Will he cheat on me, wat if he finds that girl prettier, short japanese cute girls he likes & i'm NOTHING like that. zero. nothing. i got fkin long face & im tall cuz of my dumb shoulders, blabla the list is endless.

fking hate myself for not being born naturally pretty & cute. *shrug* god must have knew wat kind of a bitch i am on the inside so he made me like this on de outside. ah lain fking outlooks. -slash face-
kk watever. i mus stfu now. I myself dont really like to see ppl emo & i'm doing this shit to myself. i'm SO pathetic now. cries.

i wish i have my black wings & just fly forever into the haunting darkness...

brace yourselfs

2012-01-08T19:27:00.004+08:00

Brace yourselfs! Low self esteem coming your way. okay. :(
did my lower brackets. Dentist pronouce Cement as semen. LOL wth. & he was telling his female assistant to put more 'semen' on the brackets. XD
ok anyway Tama dl so many movies but didnt watch cuz it cant work dont know why yo! poor him, work so hard dl it den cant work. wanted to watch Contigion.

went Ikea with him last sat. so fun XD 1st time eating de YUMMY meatballs omg. Walking along furniture, i kept tinkin of havin a hse with tama LOL "wooden floor", sinks, mirrors, light wahhh MARRY ME NAOO :X

on a side note, I wanna go Australia so bad. but its like its gonna be spring soon. i wanna go in autumn... sigh. abit too late rite LOL *facepalm self*

Samantha Thavasa

2012-01-03T20:34:00.007+08:00

Onee Gyaru outfit! plus my first branded Samantha Thavasa bag! *squeal* kirei na!! :3

nx round when i rich, i buy this one or de light blue bear bag. >_<
will tk more nicer pics of my bag XD Tama buy for me ! $500+ (o≧∇≦)o　ｲｴｰｲ

2012 will be shitty i presume

2012-01-01T19:04:00.004+08:00

New year~

went to watch fireworks with Tama. so beautiful~ but i watch till my thoughts got lost & my eyes kept crisscrossing LOL the kiss i shared with him under the fireworks is nice *^.^*
but aft that i was super exhuasted no idea why. XD
cant wait for me & his bday. looking forward!!
ok lazy type. not happy but SURVIVE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE.

clicka clicka

2011-12-27T21:01:00.004+08:00

i took away de music box so its less annoying! yay :D stay tuned next year for more CHIO PHOTOS ^^
tk old pic play cheat. baka~
i wanna tk another photoshoot asap!! come on 2012~ XD
stayed at Dar's hse so happy! Zean kor oso came, watched them play Skyrim&MW3 like good dog huh. ;_; but Skyrim me wanna play too !! :(
ok. gona be end of year soon.

i realise alot of girl bloggers all like to show boobs, wear slutty clothes, go clubbing & become "famous" in that way. mm.. *looks at self* lika plain jane laddat. :( am i boring as fk? i tink so. thats y i dont have much frens(& hits on my blog :X i kid cuz i no update frm year 2010). i guess its alright since i got Tama. if no him, i tink i become otaku. stay home be good, BE OTAKU. fml. Lirin got no life.

nao i'm sick with sore throat, headache and body ache. *whine* ja matte!

EOY

2011-12-18T21:11:00.004+08:00

Suki cosplayin as Luka Just be friends~ & me, prior to EOY's meido theme... a meido. LOL
i know i know reuse cosplay costume. omg -_-
anyways i miss AFA alrdy EOY sucks! AFA's Flow. omg FLOW FLOW.

change my blog layout after many years. HAHAA Purikara style. LOL like cock laddat de banner but i dun care. wait for more photoshoots den I'll change. ^^;;

nx event is christmas! den on to filming Love&Roll, Luka night fever, RenaiC & more photoshoots. DEN ME & TAMA BDAY. i hate him ah srsly. idoit.

Underwater world

2011-12-12T22:48:00.011+08:00

Just a few pics~ Underwaterworld with Rox, Su & Su's baby girl XD SO FUN laugh alot of idoitic jokes :X Feed the stingrays and they kept screaming which sounded really like car accident brakes HAHAHA
cant wait for more outings ^^ Credits to Su for de photo taking ;b

Black Lens

2011-12-06T21:18:00.001+08:00

trying simple makeup wif simple lens. i tink not bad

Ways to clear skin

2011-12-04T20:44:00.006+08:00

Ways to clear skin

1) Put a tee shirt or towel over your pillow
Pillow cases are the culprit to your clogged skin! and only once a month you change the pillow case? NO NO NO. Its just like u're wearing the same dress everyday w/o washing. same theory! Just put a towel over ur pillow & every 3 days dump ur towel into the washing machine :D

2) WASH YOUR FOUNDATION SPONGES with soap or better, dettol.
Alot of ladies tend to use till the sponges that has alrdy degenrated with bacteria & face oil.
Imagine the months of dirt stored in your sponges & u keep on reapplying the hidden bacteria onto your faces.

3) Fruits and vegetables helps!
It takes like a month or more to actually see the the effect of it. Which is why many ppl dont bother to eat F&V.

4) Keep your room clean
The enviornment you sleep in must be clean and well ventilated.
If you lazy to clean your room at least let the fan face you thru the night, keep your face cool and 'dust-free'

5) HANDS OFF YOUR FACE
You touch money, door knobs, public transport poles etc.
hello, ever wondered how many dumb idoits out there dont wash thier hands after going to the toilet? how many scratch thier scabs,pus,ear shit etc & touch said items and YOU touch it?? no wonder de mrt pole always so oily. YUCKS. den u go touch ur face -_-

6) Checking your facial products
When i started using ZA everything was fine & dandy. Untill like after a month or so, i started to develop pimples/acne. ALOT of em.
I was like "Must be hormones" but Tama told me its "my ZA foundation"
I told him cannot be lah! ZA WELL KNOWNED GOOD BRAND. and why only after a month of using? If i was sensitive to it shld be like maybe a week or so right.
So my stubborness led me into months of ugliness/low self esteem/shame to face anyone cuz i swear my face damn ALOT of bumps. gross max.

Till Tama had to force me to throw my ZA & get a japanese brand foundation.
Guess what? Within like 2.5 months (yes it took quite long cuz there was just too many pimples) my face fully recovered & now i have baby smooth skin! except for the occasional bumps cuz of pms.

Morale of story: Check your products/Do not be stubborn like me LOL

ok there are actually more ways but i dont tink u guys wont be interested in lengthy posts so I'll stop here & good luck in your journey to clear skin!

wat is love X

2011-11-21T19:14:00.004+08:00

stepdad put together tis. so cool~!
i get easily hurt thanks to him.

anyway i wan a cheap ring cuz i'm always losing things! & a ring light but its so retardedly expensive. -_- shall try to DIY. haiz.

jus feel very down. k watever. just feel affected by tdy. to add to the pain, dispatch send flowers to tenant & she was like happy in surprise & i'm like behind de counter SOUR in envy ok. :(

nx entry is on taking care of ur skin THE LAZY WAY lol~(if i wana put an entry)
30th Nov: 8 year anniversary
3rd Dec: Post AFA Dinner
10th Dec: EOY (hope we're performin if not i become meido! ｷｬｰq(≧∇≦*) ya la i reuse costume lol!
17th Dec: USS again! super excited yo~

Gonna end tis with "I HATE TAMA"

fringe fridge

2011-11-20T22:30:00.001+08:00

i like tis kind of fringe! but so difficult to maintain. gee.

i miss Tama ALOT. faster friday grrr. :/

AFA 2011

2011-11-16T21:15:00.014+08:00

Our neighbouring stalls ^.^
AFA 2011 work for METRONOME

Chrisu frm Steins Gate!!!!!!!! :D so happy i took photo wif her :X

Nyah? :3

went for de AFA concert to see LiSA & Flow my fave!!! Boss gave me free tix so i went wif Tama. VIP SOMEMORE SCREAM!! XD~ so fun!! <3

inferior

2011-11-13T20:42:00.005+08:00

tis is jus a post where i let off de steam & let ppl know who suffer de same that they are not alone and oso that i KNOW i am not alone.

we girls are so affected by society these days. the first ting ppl are so judgemental about is the FACE. Unfortunately, i am one of de girls apparently more than affected by this society. To the point where, at times i look at myself in the mirror & start to cry. yes i know what u guys are thinking now. "wtf? dont u have better things to cry over? lame fk." & these are the ppl who will nv understand that they are de ones who goes like "omg she's so much prettier then you!" indirectly right in our faces! Exp:Talking more to a pretty girl while ignoring the 'ugly' one?

Hence, these insecurities comes about. Whenever girls tell me bout how insecure they are, i'll say NO YOU ARE PRETTY & i mean it. Cuz i know i am at a worse state then they are.

i feel better now so i'm just tryin to pinpoint my flaws & the same time givin exp of insecurities. (My insecurities is Looks.)

1: [Meeting new friends] i tend to be quiet & dont really mk new friends. why? I dont want them to see my flaws.

2: [Taking pictures] i try my best to hide my ugliness by using my 'nice' angle of face or using hands to cover my flaws

3: [Criticism] yes, i know my flaws & I HATE IT when ppl actually point out my flaws + make light hearted jokes! (i dun blame u but i will feel it's like a personal attack!)

4: [Compliments] I love compliments when it is true to what's worth in my mind. Exp: "Ur makeup so pretty!" (i like) I always try my best to fish for compliments to make me feel better. But if u tell me i look pretty in real life, i will never ever believe it cause that's just a fact. Note: & tis is where i fail, cuz i have submitted myself to come to a standstill in believing that it can never change.

5: [Feelings] whenever i feel it, my way of 'solving' it is to ask ppl closest to me: "Why i so ugly?" "*whine* i look like shit" "omg i damn shitty looking" THIS IS WHERE I NEED ALOT OF COMPLIMENTS. yes, in the end no matter what i will not believe what you say BUT it's like a temporary measure to stop de feeling to erupt into an explosive/crying/climax unstable mentality.

6: [Posture] Noticed that i hunch back alot? i realise i was tryin to mk myself small! so ppl wont notice me. When i talk to ppl, most of the times, my hands are near my face, so when i laugh i can cover my mouth to hide my braces.

ok so like these are de few i can tink of. probably alot more that i dont even notice!

but i just want to say tis.
- Grow a thick skin. THINK that u are chio, even if u really tink u are not! Cuz there are ppl out there to really really think that u are pretty! Take pride in that! Think of them! you are de apple of thier eye~ & i think of Tama whenever i feel down.

- Stop reading/looking at pretty model magazines etc. Its how de society flows. Do NOT get caught up in it. Plus not all ppl actually appreciates that kind of beauty. i shall comfort you by saying this: 80% pics are photoshopped. ;)

- Tk really gd lookin pics of yourself! appreciate urself and go wahhh ^^

- Tk up a hobby or do something that tks ur mind off your insecurities (tis is where my makeup skills come in :D)

- Think of your good points instead of your bad! Like i tink dat my eyes are really pretty!! yes?? hehe ok i feelin high alrdy LOL

-Concentrate on the ppl who really love you for who you are cuz these are de ppl who dont give a fk bout your looks but your personality! ACCEPTING you for who you are.

i just wan to say that your not alone ok? especially to girls! My pretty ladies with gentle hearts.
i'm no guru or wat, i just really want to let u know that its alright.

it really is alright. :) GAMBETTE MINNA <3

Caramel Choco love

2011-11-08T23:08:00.003+08:00

took tis shot of the morning sky~

done wif audition last sat. so funny, we screwed de dance de last part & luffed like mad and de judges actually liked it wtf! XD results in 2 weeks time!
AFA tis sat & sun. be wearing day 1: Seifuku (sch uni!) Day 2: Kawaii japanese fashion <3

miss my tama. sigh. we watched One Day tgt. freakin nice movie :'( so heart aching just like Sweet November. tmr cut hair alone :(((( but i'm so desperate for nice hair XD

an old pic of me. i miss my youth LOL past 2 days 4 hours of slp only? tired. hehe

Dar, 30th Nov comin soon already. :) for 8 years its jus you & me... & pokemon.
ZETTAI DAIKIRAI! ｡゜(｀Д´)゜

events 2011!

2011-10-24T21:42:00.003+08:00

time of de year again! loads of events towards de last few months of every year. ureshi! ^.^/
Spooktacular
AFA
Sitex?
EOY dance at TP
Photoshoot
Tama's hehe

busy busy! cant wait to see my Tama asap!!

like tis photo but photograher duno focus where BOO !!

2011-09-25T21:54:00.003+08:00

my darling pet. :(

been so concentrated on my lirinlirin.tumblr.com that i've alrdy stop blogging lol. anyway, i did my braces alrdy. super happy. & when i'm richer i will do fillers etc. judge me all u wan it's ok.

so many things have happened this month.. my pet passed away. My guy gona get something too! (secret) it's like a month of ups and down.. yep.

nx sat, to hotel buffet again. cant wait. gotta suffer a week of work 1st. sigh.
i miss my pet. kk check out my tumblr

2011-08-07T20:48:00.001+08:00

dar dar see my new tumblr LOL

http://lirinlirin.tumblr.com/ *(^-^ )'*~' suteki na!

love..

2011-07-24T21:28:00.002+08:00

i miss my guy.. :( where is Tama..
post a vain photo of me so tama will miss me more AS IF. PUI *roll away angrily*

love

2011-07-17T22:03:00.005+08:00

Red.
MIA lol !! XD tryin my best to set up a new blog acc T^T
srsly cant wait for my pay!! $2 in my bank for 10 days alrdy haha damn.

i miss tama. *cuddles up on his warm chest*

77% of girls think they are ugly, 50% of girls think they are fat. 100% of the society should stop insulting girls of thier appearance

lol

2011-07-04T17:52:00.007+08:00

wow. i jus had a major heartbreak.
how am i suppose to trust.

u can do it behind my back den y cant i have fb & twitter? plus fb&twitter i wont cheat on u. I'll probably post many photos of me&u.

i wanna fb and twitter. i have many girlfrens there i can talk wif and ure not lettin me. and ure not ard to tok to me while ure in ns. i am confident cuz i know i wont cheat on u.

if u wana play sure. go ahead. but u still wont let me. and this shit happens on ur itouch. wow.

ow ow ow. de hurt feelings are back again lol. lol...

tears keep flowing as i type this.. tell me.. am i in the wrong?
i guess i am.
i'm being too sensitive? for fuck am i like tis? why am i beng so easily hurt? why cant i be a strong person and just not give a damn bout it? why?

i give up.

[edit]
u know... i thought i cld jus see de photo album to put me&u as wallpaper instead of my cb face.
so yea. it kinda hit me hard when i saw something i did not expect at all.

it really does pain me alot.
even if u said wat format nonsense but i was wondering. how come those pictures?

so.. in the end...not even one of my picture is in there..

^.^

2011-07-01T20:28:00.004+08:00

cant wait for tmr ! HAPPY. watch late movie transformer wif my guy ﾞ(^･ω･^=)~ww

i miss Tama

2011-06-28T21:33:00.003+08:00

ﾜｧ～！｡゜(｀Д´)゜｡ﾜｧ～！I MISS TAMA. ALOT.

Tama the nezumi kiss kiss me <3 he's my boyfren replacer ^^
during cosfest 2011. i BLINK WTH -_-;;
（ ´∀｀）ノ♡ 愛あげりゅっっ!!

Akai Tsuki

2011-06-16T03:17:00.002+08:00

as i am typing this, i'm waiting for de red moon at 3.25am. It's 3.17 now. but BAD NEWS. cloudy and signs of raining AHHH!!! nooo but i manage to see de half eclips BEAUTIFUL soft orange glow. wow~ Suki & Farhana is waitin wif me too , to see de red moon LOL cool max.

anyway i duno y but i couldn't slp AT ALL. which was pretty strange cuz i wont be up tis late without feeling a lil tired. but here i am full of energy.. maybe its de moon? *shrug*

sigh. well. 2nd day and i mus say, i'm not really coping well wif Tama at camp. sigh. i really really can't.. *shuts eyes and takes deep breath* well... wat can i do rite. i jus wan him by my side...

off to watch de moon again.. my comfort..

trust no one

2011-06-13T21:28:00.001+08:00

i get angry everyday cuz i cant seem to gain enough attention from you..

ure leaving soon and i can't cope wif de loneliness..

well of course. like as if u care.

shall harden my heart den.

ja~

u have to go?

2011-06-12T21:34:00.001+08:00

how i really feel right now...

time for me to convert to my otaku side to curb de loneliness...

universal studio madness

2011-06-09T21:12:00.015+08:00

Po is our friend ! What bout u ?? :D

The freakin LARGE pizza MEANT FOR FOUR LOL !! one slice is much bigger den my head!

Dar's fave~ i sit till wanna vomit. @_@~~ kept having motion sickness. but de ride is SUPER FUN WEE ! i wanna go back there again.
The jurrasic park water is smelly tee hee ! but so cool when it lifted up. whoo hoo! den i broke my nail XD !
Madagascar ride so fun too BUBBLES ~ De indian family behind us damn cute, finger punch air & "i like to move it move it !" HAHA. den de egypt is WOWOWOWOW XD
Watch so many shows, like monster rock, daddy o's, MelB girls (alot of upskirt whoo hoo!), rockafella's is funny!!, 4d shrek etc etc~ so funnn.

but i freakin hate de sun. so hot till i almost fainted but didn't wana complain XD

de soft cream ice cream was sooo yummy ^-^
Miss de place alrdy :'(

sigh

2011-06-07T20:49:00.008+08:00

next week.

no more talks at night.. i feel safer when i hear ur voice over de phone before i slp

no more hugs, dotes, kisses

no more whinings

no more flirting and being cute

no more sending to home late in the night

no more love

no more happinessDun't go puese? T^T

一人で

2011-06-06T20:28:00.003+08:00

きつね <3
今日は退屈な一日です ww~
おやすみ。
また~! (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ

peek of hong kong

2011-06-04T19:55:00.010+08:00

guess who de mascot likes more? (dar taller den de mascot sia -_-)

a few photos to sum up hong kong

boyfren shirt

2011-06-04T17:09:00.001+08:00

Literally my boyfriend shirt LOL
dar i gangster or not ?? hehe XD

Licence2Play

2011-05-30T22:03:00.003+08:00

[Licence2Play] me& Suki ^^
oo damn. de flash makes me look sick XD
events <3 forever !!

BRS

2011-05-22T19:03:00.005+08:00

Black Rock Shooter <3 I wan an anime character's life~ To look pretty ALL THE TIME, have a perfect life and having many wonderful adventures
Stay home on weekends. like wtf is wrong with me. totally regret not going out. while somebody is having fun what bout me? CAN I NOT BE STUPID FOR ONCE? freakin stand up on my two own feet and be independent for goodness sake. -_- *slaps self*
Let me die. watever.

hurt

2011-05-22T00:16:00.001+08:00

hurt.

Yami no Hikari

2011-05-18T22:27:00.001+08:00

Would you sell your soul to the darkness or the light...?
nice rite dar? ^^

i miss travelling

2011-05-17T18:55:00.003+08:00

<3 i miss travelling alrdy.... ( i look like a dumb bitch here XD )
i miss disneyland. de cheap clothes and my Kyuru

bring me go travel again !!! :'(

yay

2011-05-10T13:58:00.001+08:00

GOING OVERSEAS WITH KYURU <3 bye spore !

(^-^ )* happy. tmr's de day. wif dearest wif dearest ! yayyyy

bored

2011-05-08T20:45:00.004+08:00

DAIKIRAII !!

what am i gonna do tmr and tues?? :( wana pick dat idoit up frm airport tmr.. but ya.. he nd to rest.. ah. whatever. sudden hatred for de world. heart grown cold. go die. pfft !

I LOVE GRAY FULLBUSTER hpmh. hate u

[Edit]

Before Marriage=

Boy: I have been waiting for this day.
Girl: Do u want me to leave??
Boy: NO!!!!
Girl: Do u love me?
Boy: Of Course
Girl: Will u ever cheat on me??
Boy: Never in my life
Girl: Will u ever kiss me?
Boy: Every chance i get
Girl: Will u hit me??
Boy: Are u crazzy..!
Girl: Can i trust u??
Boy: Yes..!!

-After Marriage- (now read from bottom to top)

dar come back...

2011-05-04T23:07:00.002+08:00

Tama come back.. pls..
I've never felt this lonely in my life before...

4 more days..

I wonder non stop, i worry all day and i wished u back every minute..
Sleepless nites, lousy appetite, moody and hurt.. I feel so small and scared.

Gd nite.. gonna lie in bed and cry somemore. i'm weak & pathetic so wat. i dun care. :((( i dun care.

Promise no more of this thing anymore.. my heart can't take it..

fk off

2011-04-27T22:02:00.002+08:00

will you jus leave me alone. both of u. LEAVE ME ALONE. ... holiday shld be happy and U BOTH give me so much shit. obviously u dun know wat i TRIED. yes i bloody hell tried my best alrdy. u wan me give u solid proof? I CAN'T OK. pls go to hell u 2.
sick & tired. both of u. selfish bustards. selfish to get WAT U WAN. me? wat bout me?!

i really really hope. i'd die peacefully in my slp tonite. so i no nd to face u both anymore. pls die me. i wish i die in my slp. quickly now. den u both will finally realise dat my life is more important den ur selfishness.

...

2011-04-26T20:43:00.001+08:00

ahya i dun care wat u say la. i hate her for now. irritating. damn irritating. jus go away.

wat is..

2011-04-23T22:39:00.001+08:00

never..

emotional

2011-04-19T21:30:00.002+08:00

wana be in her place

i feel very useless. why can't i be in another person's body? she has perfect face, body, friends, family and job. why can't i be like her? feel so low self esteem. i duno how to bring myself up anymore.. best of all no jpn.. no more sakura to see... i feel so lousy now... real shitty...

but althou she has everythin i ever wanted. one thing is missing. Tama. i guess even no matter how bad everythin is, i have him and dats all dat matters.

gd bye pretty wig...

2011-04-16T23:33:00.003+08:00

Slpin in her old box.

i miss kyuru..

i wonder wat is he doing now.
i wonder if he's tinkin of me.
i wonder does he hates me.
i wonder if we're meant to be.

gd nite... slp tight... dark love over yonders in the night...

erm.

2011-04-14T23:02:00.002+08:00

i feel kinda down. but no matter wat i gotta try rite. but i cant seem to do it.
yes tok to her.
but i really can't. like i'm being hard wired to avoid her. but i will try.
althou i kinda suspect dat aft typin out tis heartfelt post, de nx day i wld grow back to my cold stone heart and diss tis post. like wtf am i writin?

argh. i dunno. i wanna but i dunwanna. WTH. i really can't.
i dunno how to start.
and even when i start i wld piss off everythin there & den, back to square one. FML. ok i nd to swear. dun like to swear but wana swear. seriously. i'm a bitch in tis area.

sigh.

can i jus commit suicide & not deal with this? heart hurts. really.

why is it so difficult... why why why... why can't tis family be normal. I AM THE WEIRD BITCH DATS WHY. ... duno. gd nite.

dark

2011-04-07T22:33:00.003+08:00

first & foremost.

i love u dar. how de heck u bear wif my attitude i dunno. u're amazingly sweet! <3

http://smashingshare.com/2010/07/26/dark-creepy-landscape-photography/

i LOVE tis kind of photos. <3 really. its amazing.

Tumblr

2011-03-27T20:03:00.003+08:00

Cute.

Wish i could spend the rest of my life here. No rush, no worries for money, no make up, no hustle & bustle. Just a natural peaceful love for life.

hearts wig

2011-03-17T22:30:00.002+08:00

i wan tis wig :(

rosebelle.org

2011-03-16T22:08:00.001+08:00

de $8 dress on sale. perfect quality, lovely details. yayyy

Kyuru~ zutto ne?

2011-03-01T21:07:00.005+08:00

best boyfren in de whole wide world. surprised me wif rose & cake =) love u

sucks

2011-02-14T19:44:00.002+08:00

all it takes is jus an sms on valentine's day. too bad for me. all i get was smses bout de stupid concert. sure.

CNY eve

2011-02-03T20:36:00.010+08:00

nice ma dar? i did tis shot myself. =B

to dar:

moew desu

2011-01-31T23:01:00.006+08:00

my love which no one will ever replace. never in my lifetime.

i look so ugly here but he look nice XD

who wanna donate money

2011-01-20T22:28:00.003+08:00

gettin tired day by day. i wana buy 2 items. one is $17, de other $48. but i can't touch my bank. sick of it. nvm. i'll be workin hard at starving for next few weeks. i really wanna buy it. sigh. like fml.

Tama love me~

2011-01-10T23:00:00.002+08:00

i dunwan put de rest of de pic up cuz i lazy trademark them if not ppl will steal. love u

u thinkin of me? =)

shinjiteru?

2010-12-03T21:27:00.002+08:00

ok i'm not updating my blog lol. *shrugs*

can't wait for april so i can travel with him. kyaa...

sometimes i feel like de whole world is against me. well i guess everybody once in a while feels this way. lol.
Pingchat users pls msg me ur id so i can add u ok =) it's an app like chatting on msn but it's on all smartphones. like iphone & andriod users can chat FOR FREE. awesome rite. yep yep

....

2010-11-27T15:52:00.003+08:00

from today onwards i will never ask for ur help ever again. it's not my fualt when de program is not workin. yes i know u took de trouble to come down etc but when it is not workin all de blame is being put to me. if u dunwan help den don't. i never force u. everything is to ur convenience. and when i try to stop u from being late to ur jam, u fk me upside down like wtf? if cannot means cannot dun bloody hell blame me when u help me out of ur own free will. I DIDN'T FORCE U TO COME TODAY OK. and all de time whenever i ask u for help it always end up tis way. wat's de point.

lesson learnt. never ask anyone of help. especially u.

anyway thanks for ur trouble. (even thou all de blame always end up on me, when its not my fault if watever thing isn't working)

Tofu&Carrot

2010-11-16T20:26:00.006+08:00

it's like we're in winter~

i tink i'm gonna fall sick. T_T no likes this feeling!

I WISH SINGAPORE TO SNOW!

moew?

2010-11-08T20:41:00.002+08:00

Kitty nyahh
de 1st time it saw me, i squat down to pat its head & it half climb onto my lap & closed its eyes to sleep.
this time round, it bury its head into my cardi and slept on my lap.

waited a long time, playin wif my andriod games and 40min passed. time to wake kitty.
pat it, moved it it didn't wan to move at all =_= den i forced it up den it bit my body and lay its head on my boobs with that "wah lao i wan slp look" had to carry kitty & put it on de bench. LOL. unyaahh super adore.

yea. tis kitty totally reminds me of Tama =_= dun like to be irritated when asleep.
missin u love.

joy?

2010-11-01T19:35:00.008+08:00

Dy took tis photo of me using her DSLR on Noraini. past 2 days, i went out for 2 bdays hahaha
Happy Birthday Karen Goh & Karthick s/o Ramasamy!! i had so much fun wif all my girlfrens these 2 days
went out wif dearest ytd =))) [more pictures will be up once i get em]

my love.

ARGH I NEED PHOTOSHOP. XD now i can't live withou it. ahhaha CHIBI u're my only hope!!!! :X

f lor u all. i know u all secretly readin my blog. tag me la ahhhaaa jus kiddin =) dun worry i duno who reads but i only know de number of ppl coming in everyday. XDfound tis pic on de net. DAMN FUNNY HAHAHA cuz i tink most girls can relate to this rite? *wink wink*

Ass

2010-10-28T21:20:00.003+08:00

new earrings & shoes.

eh f u la. 1 whole damn bloody day play game. u dun freakin give 2 shits bout me. u always say no time no time busy busy at work. now u're off day & u're givin me tis bull crap. watever ok. and to tink dat everyday i always open ur damn msg inbox, tinkin if i shld msg u, but didn't cuz i didn't want to disturb u. everytime i have fight back my loneliness, lookin at my hp. shld i msg? shld i not msg? i had enuff. i promise myself on tis blog nv to msg u ever again unless u msg me if not i'll tear my flesh again to stop tis feeling. ps: watever u tell me will fall on deaf ears so dun bother

i tire of everythin...

2010-10-26T20:24:00.003+08:00

Using andriod's poloriod effect. niceee XD
anyway i'm really very disappointed wif upcoming event which is not gonna happen. shall not say anymore before i start tearing up like a brat.

i hate life. i hate my face. i hate my insecurities. i hate the world.
I HATE ME.

Paranormal Activitying

2010-10-24T14:44:00.003+08:00

Wished it's real. i love red~
btw my trail photoshop is over =((((((((((((((((
tagged along to thier jam sessions. =) actually not bad thier jam but nd alot of improvements. at lest better den some bands i saw at jrock festive *scape lor!! -_- Lirin believes they can!

Watched Paranormal Activity wif Dearest, Mizu, Zean kor & Kain till 2am? scary! but PA 1 was wayyy better. PA 1 killed me instantly. Kain bought last min tix so he didn't sit wif us. den Tama was like pointing to de lady beside him, she was oso alone!! too bad no sparks between them LOL.

am using facewash foam by loreal only $14.90! it sticks to de wall & washin pad given so no nd to use dirty hands anymore! it's comes with other series as well, like normal, dry skin, scrub, etc. sold at any leading pharmarcy stores! ahhaaa

Simple Chocolate Fondant

2010-10-18T23:25:00.005+08:00

so easy & simple =)

http://foodwishes.com for ingredient's quantity. (right at de end page of "chocolate" link)

i tired doing tis last year, it was perfect! but being a noob i was i kept it for awhile, & it hardened into choco cake lol! SERVE HOT STRAIGHT AWAY.

rmb to tap out de air bubble as shown in vid
do not skip "waterbath" procedure (ramekins in oven dish filled with quater hot water)
pls make sure ramekins are oven resistant

Enjoy~! it's so easy =)

trinkle rainbow sprinkles

2010-10-16T21:06:00.003+08:00

random
if only you knew
how tender is my heart
if only you knew
i'll die without your touch

Sucidal Dreams

2010-10-15T20:34:00.006+08:00

i jus need to blab my feelings out. dunwan read den don't. aint forcin ya.

i know its practically nothing to all of you guys but if you think if it's nothing then why is it bothering me till i could just... kill myself? anything... anything to get away.
i felt like i recently found out my worst supressed fear. well not exactly recently but i guess when it finally happened & i got sooo defeated. like everythin in life do not matter no more. i can't let go of the past. why is it so. everytime i wrecked my mind & soul. everything that happens in the present brings me back to de past. this feeling.... it feels like a hot flushed feeling of "confused fear" washed over me. my cheeks burn up, my body stiff, my feelings all hurt & trampled on. u know... somethin like a feeling of gettin betrayed and there is nothing you can do at all. hapless. yar. nothing you can do... i hate it. i can literally feel the pure fear... the hurts the pain. i've set my whole life to become like tis... i cannot trust anymore... no matter how hard i try to do the right thing, somehow somewhere inside my head, there's this consistent irritant nudging, constantly reminding me of it deep down. Out comes the supressed fear, & all i can do to get away from this feelings is thoughts of death. it's like it hits me so freakin bad, i'll literally go crazy... i do not want to be like those auntie who becomes mentally insane & start scolding ppl out of the blue.. i've got a feeling i will become like them one day.. totally stressed to the point that thier minds come to an end...

i... i don't know what to do..

i need counselling while i'm still sane... before i waste away & lose it...
quiet me down love...

one of my fave old songs besides novacain. kinda relates... lol.. the irony..

I dream about, how it's going to end,
Approaching me quickly,
Leaving a life of fear,
I only want my mind to be clear,
People, making fun of me,
For no reason but jealousy,
I fantasise about my death,
I'll kill myself from holding my breath,

My suicidal dream,
Voices telling me what to do,
My suicidal dream,
I'm sure you will get yours too,

Help me, comfort me,
Stop me from feeling what I'm feeling now,
The rope is here,
Now I'll find a use,
I'll kill myself,
I'll put my head in a noose,

My suicidal dream,
Voices telling me what to do,
My suicidal dream,
I'm sure you will get yours too,

Dreamin' about my death, dream,
Suicidal, suicidal, suicidal dream,
I'm suicidal,
Suicidal dream.

Choco love

2010-10-13T20:35:00.004+08:00

will do anythin to get me hands on tis.
AwfullyChoco anyone? Tama waitin for me to end work haha

went town. ate & chitchat. he had sore throat so bought a hugeass watermelon frm cold storage cuz there were no slices of de fruit at de foodcourt.

u know wat? i love him. cuz he takes my nonsense & pampers me all de time. NYEHEH! sorry lor.

Lirin Hair color

2010-10-10T20:16:00.019+08:00

i know i know... it's de fifth time tis year LOL!

Me & Dearest dyin hair together at Anthony Hair Boutique (2nd or 3rd floor nearest to coner) at clark quay. GOOD SERVICE & they knew wat i wan. AWESOME. Lirin likes tis time round~ ^-^

Meet Zean kor aft dat eat ramen at cuppage. I left first den they went to L4d wif Joe.

i reached home ard 12+am. got so paranoid! omg... hate tis feeling. yea.

FRENS! HALLOWEEN TOGETHER OK? =)

Cravin desserts

2010-10-07T20:21:00.004+08:00

Lirin craves for desserts! i dunno la... i tink i'm gettin depressed all over again and i always face it alone. fml. "My road to sucess... is always under construction" somehow tis pharse keeps runnin & runnin thru my head.
Out of body and out of mind
Kiss the demons out of my dreams
I get the funny feeling, that's alright...

Stray cat entered my hse and explore my messy room. hee hee!! so fun. sat down & watched it explorin. de cat oso kept lookin at me. so cute Unyaaa!!

Past days

2010-10-06T20:14:00.005+08:00

I miss how i looked back den. perfect young skin. LOOK. it was soooo darn smooth. *screams & clutches to pictures* my lovely skin!!!! give it back!!! T__T

well of course, now i have to use foundation to cover my flaws. =\
i realise almost like 80% in my life i ponder over my face. I put loads of make up, wear de prettiest clothes (so ppl will look at clothes not face), try to make myself as pretty as possible. all for wat? for my self esteem. tis is my greatest weakness. at times i can even get so sucidal jus tinkin of it... lol... pathetic i know.

de worse thing is.... it's not enough. i still tink i'm damn ugly! actually come to tink of it YAR ITS TRUE. i can literally at least more den 10 flaws i have on me. fml. i wan natural beauty. where u just wake up in de mornin and still look beautiful wif messy hair, no make up etc.

i know somehow i've been poisoned by this sterotypical society but if u dun do anythin, u'll just be de outcast. it's a fact. I'm not books-smart too. at times i wish i cld have de brains like Mizu or Natsu. They know thier stuffs and speak so darn well. oh envy~ i too wanna go poly or university BUT I'M JUST BRAIN STUPID. really! lol, well since i'm really stupid by nature, at least i still have my "looks". rather stupid&pretty den stupid&ugly. right?

i oso can confidently say tis: Image plays a damn big part. (unless u tok smart) nobody give two shits bout inner beauty anymore.
i guess in de end, Lirin's still nothing. i'm lame. yay.

btw somethin funny i found when we were in secondary. during chalet. EPIC!! oh myyy XD
look at thier expressions!!!!!! bwahahaha!! Shell really has dat "painful-labour-look"!

Photos keepsake

2010-10-05T20:01:00.005+08:00

Only just you alone

Have the way to my lips

And with sinful love atone

Heaven it takes, is a hint of your kiss - Lirin Amaya

went to print photos for memories. so nx time i can show ppl when i'm old hahah!!

super cute cord wrappers. From daiso! go get it! XD

Lirin hearts jrock

2010-10-03T18:10:00.017+08:00

we watched Devil at cine. I WILL NV STEP INTO LIFTS WIF GRANDMOTHERS. :X

went Jrock gig at Scape* wif Tama, Zean kor, Mizu & Kain. Natsu was de emcee for de event. Joe was event coordinator and saw JoJo & Rika. =)) de last band was really good! Almost like watchin a real visuel kei band. NICE. good vocals ! (was sad they didn't do uverworld or Girugamesh T_T) when's Tama's band turn?? Headbang and gores. de place was so darn cold!

went Zaiton's daughter bday party. it's humid! was wif Linda, Fadli, Shalihan & Budi.

Steamboat at bugis wif Tama dar, Zean kor & Mizu. wtf i still can't accept de fact Pearlyn's workin for Sasa =_= me leanin forward for picture =X

Story time! i was SUPER SUAY OK. i got stalked by a guy.

it's was de only time Tama didn't send me home on dat day. (usually he sends me everyday cuz its late)
its was alrdy 11pm.

i was walkin & i saw tis particular guy following me at de other end of de bus stop. (followed parellel at 1st) so i tot nvm... maybe he's walkin de same direction as me?
but i was hell wrong. aft de walkway merged. he walked RIGHT behind me.
de kind where he cld breath down my neck. THAT CLOSE!!!!!!
he was so damn bloody close i freaked out.
and my pace was quite fast & i cld hear his footsteps following so near!!

Luckily there was a grp of auntie in front of me so he didn't do anythin but was still followin.
ok i reached my lift landin & guess wat?

he mysteriously disappeared.

ooookkaayy...... *takes sisscors out of bag* eh u cannot blame me right. i was scared shit & i realised dat i needed AT LEAST somethin to protect myself. i felt much safer when i had a weapon in hand.

ok i entered de lift, pressed my floor & door close. as it was closing GUESS WAT? YES.
he rushed in at de last min & my heart screamed wif terror!!! omg!!

IT WAS LIKE CRIMEWATCH......

but i dunwan to panic cuz if he knows i'm scared, i'm afraid he might so somethin. he quickly press de door close.

i was shivering wif shit fear as i grab my sisscors tighter. but he jus stood there facin de door. de lift reached my floor, so i went forward den he stood behind me.
i was like wiling de lift to open faster!!! looked at de reflection to keep an eye on him.

den suddenly he bend down his head to my shoulder neck area for a second. i was like wtf.
den he did it a second time!! i quickly turn ard den he strightened up swiftly.
looked at his hands in case he tried to upskirt me or somethin.
so ya he was smellin me.
luckily i smelled like fish cuz of de steamboat LOL.

ok ran out. it was over. but i dunno why, i was even more suay when i usually can find my keys within 5 sec & i took freakin 3 min!!! @_@ i stood outside like an idoit panickin. and every sat, my parents will be home alrdy. rang de doorbell and they are not!! FML!!! scared shit serious. =_=

aft dat told Tama everythin over de phone before slpin.
His response?

" hahahaa "

shiat u.

girls pls bring a sharp pointed sisscors wif u ok. its at times like tis dat i start to realise it cld happen to me and i felt protected wit at least SOMETHIN. imagine u have nothin!

wat? u gonna fight wif ur fingernails ladies? dun bring penknife.
where got time to push open de blade? LOL "wait ah wait ah" *tweaks penknife lock open & den slides blade out*
SIAO.
take sisscors and STAB! fast and effective ok?!
pls be careful girls. sheesh. all de more reasons i shld become lesbian. hate pervs.

Resident Evil 5

2010-09-29T13:54:00.012+08:00

Tama smile till so happy wif Zean =_=.
de night before camped at Tama hse watched Zean kor & him play Resident Evil 5 from 11am to 5am. good playwork, nvm~ but they DIDN'T SAVE LOLS MAX!
Kor went home 1st den we met up Mizu&Zean for dinner. play Munchkin at Mac Scape. lol~

bought tis shoe(Taiwan) from Flea Scape for $9!!!! omg. XD

i'm sick =( worst headache in my life. felt like there's an alien tryin to burst outta my head.
cried alot cuz it was suffering T_T

ya fml.

kisslocke

2010-09-23T21:43:00.003+08:00

ditto~ i really wanna go plastic surgery if given a choice. btw anyone out there can help me wif de procedures of gettin a dog? i'm bent on buyin a toy poodle. now doing research to prepare myself & guage if i could handle it. =)

bought both peices from Kisslocke.net
wanted somethin casual yet sexy. (but de inner peice Tama dun let me wear out cuz its too sexy T_T ahahhaa) Fast service & postage. good!

so like tis whole week is JAM PACK! whoo pee~ tis sunday 2 birthday parties to attend. mon-wed on leave to spend time wif dearest, fri outing wif receptionist, sat dance practice~

Chii X Fay D Florite

2010-09-20T21:49:00.004+08:00

my fave couple. they are perfect for each other!! love tis episode. wish they will be together thou T__T~~ (sigh i wish love in tis world would be like tis and not be tainted)

i rather live in dreams den face reality. wats wrong wif dat?

Chinchilla

2010-09-19T16:30:00.006+08:00

i found another flower love besides Roses. Red Gerberas. (Definately want it at my weddin &funeral!!!) it's god damn prettaay~~~~ =DD

Cleaned her cage today & got her new box. kept poppin her small head out. super cute~

any good andriod games to recommend?

ya know sometimes de Contract engineers & security guards at my workplace can really piss me off. shan't name names but f* la. just fkin shut up. tis particular idoit likes to talk bout pervertic jokes & dat idoit i only knew for like 2 days only? FARK OFF. i'm like super pissed off. u're not thirsty? talk for 1hr straight? Bash ur face in den u know. shait.

de other take me for a dumb asian girl. hello? stop REPEATING. i'm not deaf, neither dead, i can ACKNOWLEDGE. plus my education level is higher den ur secondary 2, stop it SEHH. =_=
ignoring is impossible. how can u not get pissed if he really treats u like some dumb animal?

Example of situation:
Idoit: "eh u duno how to use this laptop ah?"
Smarter den idoit: "i already know. i'm playin games. dun disturb me"
***10 mins later
Idoit: "wah cannot be la. u still figuring out how to use de laptop ah?"
Smarter den idoit: "hello. i jus said i'm playin games rite. i freakin know how to use. u tink i so dumb ah? tis laptop wif me for almost a week already hor!"
***15 mis later
Idoit: "ahyo. so long already u still figure out ah? use other model la~"

YAR. FARK MY LIFE!!!!!! & de way his tone of speakin really pisses me off!! i almost wanted to throw somethin heavy at his face! wth.

and de next day i felt it would be a better day.
.
.
.
.

"omg! u still exploring ur laptop ah???"

someone give me a creme brulee.

Koi ice cream milk tea

2010-09-12T21:10:00.011+08:00

went out wif Suki on sat to get her things. i photoshop(i FINALLY dl de trial today!) suki. nice rite? not bad for beginner~ =X

nx entry i try get ugly photo of me den photoshop it. wahaha. let u guys see de diff. so fun :X

so we walked here and there~ chichat alot of tings. stupid chef hates me den dunwan give me prawn. LOL. fml.

drank ice cream milk tea from koi. yummy! but not worth de wait. so ridiculous de queue =_=
i miss Suki! LOL. go out wif me more often!

u love me dar?

Toy poodle

2010-09-11T15:36:00.004+08:00

someone buy me a Toy poodle!!! *squel* adorable cuteness!! kyaaaaahhh~~~ @_@ credits to denham spring

rmb i said bout wonderhowto.com on my last post?
well guess wat?
i learned from the lock picking video and i LITERALLY PICKED THE FREAKIN LOCK OUT. LOL! it's super awesome. hahahaa!!
i rmb testin it out & it wasn't loose at all. so cool. =X (btw i used only 2 paper clips) yea. hehee Su was there oso ok. i have prove!

Love games

2010-09-09T23:15:00.012+08:00

yea i got my Sony Xeperia X10 hp. *$$ flies* thks dar for helpin me put songs in it. love~
check out tis website www.wonderhowto.com i tink its pretty cool! there's vids like How to hack a coke machine & get its $, How to open a car door with a tennis ball, How to walk on water etc. LOL, super cool.
u know i kinda agree that love is just an illusion.
That "love" is like a substance where it'll kick in to activate human instints.
Humans will den copulate & produce children to continue the human race on earth.
After that, "love" slowly dies out and sufferings are brought forth.
and no tis does not apply to my relationship now but soon maybe?

yea maybe its time to really wake up to reality.

if only it was tis color but brighter wif pinkish tone!!
truth is, i wan a sweet pink platinuim hair color!! (like lighting from ff13) SHAIT my work.
argh screw the world! i wanna dye my hair lighter & go for plastic surgery!

comex 2010

2010-09-05T15:51:00.013+08:00

Went comex wif Mizu, Zean kor, Pearly & her galfren. i help buy for Tama Xbox 360 elite wif extra console & 2 games = $600+ *cha-ching flies*
Mizu bought a canon cam and Pearl bought macpro, audiotech ear peices.
i felt so bad makin Zean kor walk here & there wif de heavy Xbox.

Zean lookin like loan shark runner squatting down askin his frens bout Xbox info. XD

THANKS KOR FOR UR HELP AND CARRYING ARD. he really helped me out alot cuz i'm a noob in game consoles plus it's DAMN HEAVY. omg. really appreciate it!!! T_T and to Mizu for explaining de singtel plan to me!!!!(wanna buy new smart phone soon) hee heee hee thks girl =D

aff dat met up wif dat stupid idoit at his workplace at gallery hotel to send his xbox to him. chill at starbucks till 12midnite. den go home! XD

i tink i look nicer wif curls? *twists hair wif fingers* lol! i tink i shld consider.

I'll prove the world wrong
and teach them all to sing along!

my eyebrow damn fugly. hee heee

Hey Sweets

2010-09-02T20:14:00.016+08:00

"No thank you" guitar players. love it max!!!
(dar dun get too excited. i just found out they are GUYS with really nice thighs crossdressing) shait!

Hado Labo whitening lotion. Bio essence pine pollen exfoliator.
BOTH ARE DAMN GOOD!!!!!! worth ur moolah!! omg. de 1st application have results! YEA!

De lotion made my skin feel so hydrated and perky. it REALLY absorbs into my skin. washed my hands with water, there is no "slimey" feeling like other toners or lotion. nice~

De exfoliator with whitening properties gave me baby smooth skin!! AHH! XDXD really gd =)

ok btw ate at de Let's Sweets at bugis wif my dearest. it is cheap but NOT dat good. it was actually pretty normal...... lol.... but i like de creme brulee!! XD ate at waraku few days back. (proper photos be up soon)

heard bout de STUPID ANG MOH GIRL(other country) who freakin threw de puppies in de river? F* her!!!! BITCH!!!! i hope she is found ASAP. bloody forktarted bitch.

de puppies were in a bucket, den one by one she picked de squealing poor pups and threw it damn far into de roaring river. WTF! (de incident even came up in channel5 news) and everyone right now is hunting her down. HURRY FIND HER AND KILL HER!! irritating............. arghhhhh! -_-

CANON IXUS 130

2010-08-28T14:36:00.011+08:00

Canon ixus 130. functions super cool! fish eye, miniature, wink & smile detection etc etc. =D
My work frens. =) went out to far east aft work for shoppin. Thanks for lending me $ girls! bought office heels, slipper & Usagi headband.

Left to right: Lirin, Heliza , Nuran & Sukie (mus take more proper grp photo! LOL we were like rushin)

during shoe shoppin, we had tis "Toe cramp curse" goin on LOL hahahaa! Heliza 1st, den i almost had it, den Sukie when she went home hahaha!! yea so fun. joked alot of stupid stuff. like man breast & turkey breast? wtf.

i gave a lego to Tama. he likes lego =\ My ZA compact powder case LOL i doodled on it wif a permanant marker but its startin to smudge. wth. =_= why?

Usagi headband. Demin blue wif polka hearts. ya i know i very ugly. i didn't even draw my brows fml. jus wanted to demostrate how u can wear it out.

pls dun be stupid and buy it for $9.90?(like at Heeren *rolls eye* lucky i nv buy) i bought mine at $3.90 at one of de far east shops.

Chameleon(Far east) was also selling it also. wide variety of Usagi headband for $3.90 too. =)

SO MANY HUMANS VISIT MY BLOG BUT DON'T TAG. ;_;
WHY LADDAT *Lirin cries till eyeballs explodes*

L4D

2010-08-22T16:19:00.010+08:00

ya thnks to my "awesome" hair dye skills it didn't change much. it went darker wif a slight tint of dark red. DAMMIT! LOL (cuz i left it on for only 15min? no patience :X)

anyways last sat was fun. ate ramen and played L4d at mysteryBox till 2am wif Tama, Zean, Mizu, Leo, Joe & Natsu.

played VS. apprantly Zean&Joe&Tama strongest but nd to split. so Tama said "Put Lirin wif Zean & Joe in 1 team!"

Meaning dat he tink i'm very lousy! Zean kor oso tink so. but PROVED THEM WRONG. *stick tounge out*

well at least not bad for a girl =\ GIRL POWER! boys sucks! hmph but yea it was pretty funny!! wee

Leo played the bejeweled while it loaded L4D so funny. there's a VORTEX OMG! @_@

(opps i messed up de names hee hee)
Nick names can become
clueless the homonculus aka Tama,
Lunatic Bell aka Zean(go translate chinese LOL), SG_bear_tekwando? aka Joe,
POSTMAN aka Mizu,
Watch My Back aka Natsu,
Mama aka Leo &
NEH_MEW aka Lirin.

hahahahahaa! wtf. at the last stage, Tama kept shouting(at Leo)
"MAMA MAMA JUST KEEPT RUNNING!"
"MAMA MAMA RUN RUN! TANK BEHIND!" "MAMA MAMA SAVE TAMA SAVE TAMA"
omgggg.......... mama here mama there LOL.

anyway we went to shop for cam wif my deary. bought de orange canon ixus NICE! *squeal*

i bought a nice skirt form Scape* flea market ^^ watched a really good band at opp cine too.

these weeks i've been a little depressed. lol... typical life.

Liese hair dye

2010-08-17T20:47:00.008+08:00

i only made finger armours.... during work. LOL.

shut up! i was bored.

i gonna mix my current hair color with liese cassis berry hee hee hee~

Bought perfumes from warehse sale. $8 for de jeanP perfume(smell NICE) plus banana republic for $10. cheap! there were Gucci&Guess&Gap for $30. went together with my work college Heliza, Su, Idah, Nuran hhahaaa~ The other day ate with him at fishCo. yea

Dances

2010-08-14T18:35:00.011+08:00

Credits to Nas. =) Left to right: Suki, Mizu, Nas, Natsu & Lirin
one of our photos from photoshoot. i like the 3rd "twin" photo of me & Nas hahaa

fooling ard hahha so much fun! wat bout tis year EOY dance?? XD

we ate fishCo de other day. will upload pics soon.

wat is he tinking? (to kill me? =O)

sweet nights~

2010-08-02T20:26:00.016+08:00

sat night overnight together =) watched Inception. very nice!
but i was cryin at de start cuz we qurrel den he scold me for my stupidity T_T

Yuki yaki on a sun. craving for de chocolate ice cream wif sprinkles!! yummy!! de lighting wasn't so good, plus my lousy hp cam = lousy photo. hehehe~ sponsor me cam anyone? =X

was so sleepy but the ice cream perked me up!! XDXD

u're my sweetness. ^^

K-ON season 2

2010-07-25T15:40:00.018+08:00

K-on season2 i LOVE this song! de ending song's nice! but not out yet~~ @_@
(i love it more when Mio is cool not cute. ahh! mio mio! *-*)

Can't find a proper pic in thier sch uniform+instruments with Azu-nyan in it =(

Tea tree oil~ hehe from bodyshop. tot it was like 100% teatree content but not =( but i still like!
yummy Ramen wif lover. (he's an Asahi drinker. yuks i no like taste)

had such a nice day with him hee hee. joked here and there. made my bus journey better~ ^^

Cousin Lynn bought me tis from Korea(she went to korea for sch tingy) BBcream wif peach blush mousse. its inside de cap! plus some face mask. thanks ^^

yea i bought de essential serum. smell SO NICE as usual. love it! i'm really into essential products ever since they launch it cuz it smells freakin yum!! haha

Linda's baby girl celebrating 1 month. =)) went with my workin babes.

i try to poke Idah. XD. Host Linda in Red. SuSu in black tee~Fadli & his wife also came. managed to see NAD!! ahh.. miss her "jahat" nonsence. ahahhaa

last year EOY dance!

argh i wan that bling iphone cover from scape! i wan it so bad i could buy it without havin an iphone man! LOL. wth !

Paranormal Activity2

2010-07-16T20:17:00.007+08:00

so freakin scary tthat i tore my headphones away quickly & kept jumpin at de silent picture!!!
AND IT'S ONLY THE TRAILER. OMG.

www.Paranormalmovie.com

(btw 8days wrote"We dare you to read the message scrawled backwards on the mirror at the end of the trailer" but i dun see any XD you guys can tell me where?)

Grandpa Gaga. awesome footwork!!! goodness. old school dancing i like! cool!

night outing

2010-07-13T20:06:00.014+08:00

Last min outing. Left hse like 830pm XD met up Mizu&Zean kor 1st. some stranger ask me to wish de girl happy birthday at city hall station hahaha luckily M&Z came on time yay! when we wished her already, she was like WTH? givin a who-are-u-face. @_@

went esplanade den Pearl drove us over to gallery hotel to pick my Tama deary up. Eileen joined us too. waited for him lik 2hrs? stupid weddin.

i went alone to wait at lounge for him den got hit on by random stranger to go clubbin. (Kor was like sayin shld reply Tanjong pagar soccar club? LOL!) btw listened to Joe's "sanity" song with de car stero ok! NOOO~~oh sanity u're no gd to me =X kinda catchy thou not bad. haha

anyway we all kept talkin alot of dumb conversations in the car. hahaha!! darn funny! i still dun get the otah ting. it was already 2am, Pearl was super funny& kept missin all de right turns HAHA went timber(close), blue jazz(close) den nvm shisha at arab? yep den me&Tama left 1st~ yep yep.

The other day went Kiseki(basement of heeren) DUN GO. the food is just NORMAL. =\ nothin special. but we had fun. hee hee shld have put makeup i look like shit...sigh

sigh.. i left my rings behind work counter. asked security to keep for me. guess wat. he lost it. sigh... today was really a bad day. i couldn't work! totally no mood. hello, i even abondoned my posts so many times.. went ard chit chattin wif other recep instead. can't be bothered.. Best thing is, the building i'm in was de most busiest lol. sick bitch. yea... i'm such a fool. i cried long and hard in the ladies... so many tings happen with me tryin to get security to find it.. etc etc....

every second, those rings(5years) was on my mind. i cound't stop tinkin of it... it went to the extent that i tot if i took my life, someone will stop me by givin me back de rings.. i know... but i was SO desperate... so freakin desperate...........

i wish i was dead.. those rings was my most prized possesion in my eyes... the most...

"Omg Cat"

2010-07-09T22:45:00.001+08:00

ok i know tis vid is pretty old news but i still find it so darn funny hahaha!! Omg cat XD

cosmo

2010-07-06T20:38:00.009+08:00

i like tis photo. but i have no photoshop to make it look better... bad lighting =(
anyways~ danced 2 segments for Cosmo? mascot parade at cineleisure. haha. (bad oranising thou =_=) made us wait wth man. but it was fun wif de girls! nx event is MATSURI! =DD

The girls: Mizu, Natsu, Suki, Pearly and Nas

only Mizu & Natsu sang duets and solo awesome!

well hopefully i can get more pictures from nas =(

our moolah gone!

2010-07-06T20:02:00.010+08:00

went far east. bought a Dusty bag $90+ and my one peice $68+.

Pizza hutED aft dat. yummy!
but ate de 3cheese lava crust too much. both of us almost puked. but we had a good luff on many jokes. hee hee~ like de "signing of bill"? :X:X inside joke

He look pretty and i look handsome. LOL